New School Pictures For 2008

Jaxon Roudy Keller- 1st grade

Jordyn Lisa Keller- Preschool
Trason Kade Keller- 3 years old

Baby Update

I went to my first OB appointment today. My due date is July 24, 2009- 3 days before my 8th anniversary! It still doesn't feel like I'm pregnant. I think I'm kind of still in shock mode. I've felt completely great- Not even a hint of morning sickness (knock on wood!) I guess once my belly starts to show I'll start feeling more pregnant. I've decided to change my tune a little bit, too. Since I've found out I'm pregnant I've been a little ungrateful, I think. I've had to tell a few of my friends that can't have babies on their own that I'm pregnant and I'm sure they have wanted to strangle me with my "why me" attitude. I'm very grateful that my body LOVES to be pregnant and I'm grateful that pregnancy is easy for me. Not to mention my 3-4 hour labor where I only have to push 1 time for about 30 seconds- That's awesome! I promise there will be no more "poor me" over the amazing act of having a child. I can't promise there won't be any crying, however. My OB told me today that I needed to be eating 2400 calories a day- that made me cry!! I can't mentally get myself to that point yet, but I'm working on it..........

Deep Breaths

I've been taking a lot of deep breaths since I found out that I'm pregnant. I always get embarrassed to tell people I'm pregnant because I feel like I have a scarlet letter on my chest. Anyway, I'm coming to terms with it. It came as such a shock because on November 1st we put $1500 into Roudy's "Flex Spending " medical account for 2009. That was to cover Jaxon's speech ($800 a year), getting Jaxon's tonsils out, and Roudy's VASECTOMY. Little did we know that I was already pregnant! There are so many very vain and selfish reasons that I didn't want another child, but as I'm getting used to the idea, I'm getting excited. The kids are really excited- they ALL want a little sister so hopefully I don't disappoint! Jordy is especially excited. She talks about the baby all the time- and always says "she" or "her". I always thought that I only wanted one girl, but I've realized what Jordy would be missing out on if she didn't have a sister. There's nothing like a sisterly bond. I keep telling Roudy that if he loved me he would hide my bathroom scale- but it's not missing yet. After losing 27 pounds and being 1 pound away from my goal weight, it's going to be horrible to watch that number creep back up. But, at the same time I keep thinking "Thank heavens I didn't get pregnant when I was almost 30 pounds heavier!" As expected my emotions are out of control, I have had a horrible headache for about 2 weeks now, and I'm exhausted. That's how Roudy knew I was pregnant. The night before we found out, I was laying in bed bawling. He asked me what was wrong and I just kept saying "I'm tired. I'm so exhausted." He was like "oh crap. You're pregnant!" I haven't sorted everything out in my head yet, like where we will actually put this baby and things like that, but I know everything happens for a reason and this is in the Lords hands now, not mine. Everything will be fine......

Oops........We did it agian

Will somebody please tell me how this happened? We were DONE.......... I'm in shock. I'll post more later when I get my emotions under control!

I'm Getting Discouraged......

I'm only two pounds away from the goal weight I set for myself back in June. I should be ecstatic, right? Well, I was until I went downstairs and found my old clothes- the ones from before I got pregnant with Trason- the ones I haven't worn in 4 years. I grabbed two pair of jeans and took them to my room to try them on.... Not even close. So, back downstairs they went into the "I'll probably never wear these again" box. I was complaining to Roudy- it went like this:

me: "I'm so frustrated! I've been working out 5 days a week since June, I'm counting calories, I've lost 26 pounds. Why can't I even get one leg into my old pants?"

roudy: "Well, you could be more frustrated. You could have tried these pants on 5 months ago and not been able to even get a calve in them!"


At first I laughed, and then I was like "what a jerk!" But, I know he was only teasing me and that was his way of telling me how far I've come. I am grateful for the success I've had, and I'm grateful that I have a healthy body that's capable of exercise, blah, blah, blah.......but I'm still frustrated.....